Pass

Pass to the left. Pass to the right.
Another pass is ahead of me.
Which pass should I pick?
Which one is right?
Too many questions and no answers.

Dilemma of choices is tearing me apart.
Decision is mine to make.
Making a choice seems to be very hard.
Which pass should I take?

Anxiety and fear come out of the darkest corners within me.
Dealing with them is hard.
I feel trapped and want to set myself free.
Where is the way out?

I sit quietly in my chair.
Waiting for the wave of emotions to pass by.
Waiting for the light to start shining ahead of me
And lighten the way.

The hope is finally here.

The Universe

World within world;
Life within life;
Beauty within beauty;
Peace within peace;
The Universe is.

It is endless and without boundaries,
Stretches beyond our imagination.
The Universe is within us and outside us.
It is everywhere.

Everywhere we look;
Everything we hear;
Everything we touch;
Just a tiny fraction of the Universe.

There is so much beyond
Our touch, vision and what we can hear.
There are endless possibilities
And freedom.

Believes

We believe.
We believe in what our parents taught us to believe.
We believe in what our society told us to believe.
We believe in what we choose to.
At times we believe so strong
That our believes become our reality and reflection of our lives.
That's when we might try to influence others' believes
And transfer our reality into others' lives.
That's when we fight for our believes -
We fight for our reality.
Our believes come and go;
Others stay forever.
But no matter what, we have our believes...

A little girl

On the banks of a ruthless river
I saw a girl staring into the space.
Close she was to the fast running waters.
Still her face was as the river attempted to reach for her bare feet.

Frightened by the scene, I approached the little girl,
Wanting to protect her from the river and danger.
Surprised I was to see no fare in the girl’s eyes.
Instead, wisdom and peace reflected in her eyes.

“Aren’t you frightened? “– I asked a girl.
She looked me in the eyes and I felt as if she looked into my soul.
“No” – she said. “The river can not harm me, unless I let it to.”
Her answer struck me. How can she be so sure?

“Life is a river.” – she said to me after a moment of silence.
“Sometimes the current is very strong like it is today.”
“And then it slows down. That’s when it is safe to cross.”
“No matter what, I choose how much the river affects me.”

Silence was my answer to the little girl.

Lost...

Lost in the motion of emotion.
Lost in anxiety and fare.
Lost in the feeling of exhaustion.
Lost in the feeling that the world is not fair.

Lost my soul is.

I say my prayer but my soul and heart are filled with silence.
I repeat my mantra again and again
Until I hear its echo in my mind
But my heart does not answer.
How dead can I be?
I hear no answer…

Rebirth

Reborn again, as if I have never been alive.
The air is so still and fresh.
I kneel on the ground and pray.
No words come out of my mind.
Only my heart speaks.
My heart speaks like it has never spoken before.
My heart is singing the song of the gratitude.
My heart is drunk on love.

My journey

I come out of the woods.
Long has my journey been through the dark forest.
My body feels numb and my eyes are aching for light.

The light is shining ahead of me and around me.
My skin feels the touch of warmth.
I welcome the joy of the light at the end of my dark journey.

Why?

Who are we to judge the world around us
When the world within us isn’t perfect?
How can we point fingers at others,
When we all make many mistakes?

Does the grass in the neighbor's yard look much greener?
Does the water from the neighbor's well taste much better?

Why do we search outside for happiness,
When all the happiness can be found within?
Why do we guilty others in our unhappiness
When unhappiness lies within?

We create our lives by our choices
That we make every minute and every day.
But we pretend to lay this responsibility on others
Because it is easier this way.

The world around us isn’t perfect
Because perfection lies within.
True beauty is revealed through the eyes of the holder
Because acceptance of the beauty is from within.

Meditation

Close your eyes and feel your body breathing.
Feel your chest expanding and your lungs filling with air.
Stay in silence. Become an observer of your thoughts and let them go.
Observe your body. Release any tension in any part of your body.
You are ready to be filled with peace and harmony.

The sun is about to set. It’s shining on me.
The clouds above me are flying free.
The birds are getting ready to sleep.
The roaring river is very deep.
The air is steel and very moist.
Insects are flying around lost.

I am lost in the world of harmony and peace.
I feel at home and at ease.

I let my mind race to the stars
And then come down to the grass

I feel love, harmony and peace.
I am in the world that I so much missed.

Angel

Walk my feet. Walk.
Talk to me green grass. Talk.
Fly clouds. Fly.
I’ll lie on the grass and watch you pass by.

Thoughtless angel is staring at the sky,
Amused by beauty of the clouds that are flying high.

Light as a feather and filled with light
He is as bright as the full moon at night.

He is filled with love and peace
Banding down to the roaring rive on his knees.

Beautiful white angel is slowly fading away
In the light of a new day.

Emotions

What is anger? Why do we choose anger so many times? Why do we feel frustrated?

I was once told that anger, frustration and unhappiness are signs of issues that we need to work with within. Events around us are just triggers that reveal the areas that require our attention.

Some long-term-asleep feelings and emotions reveal themselves in the process of awakening/realisation. They can come out as anger, frustration, insecurity, depression, sadness and any other type of feeling. How can we deal with these emotions? There is no single answer…

I try to catch the moment when I start feeling negative emotions and try to coordinate my efforts on working within myself instead of orienting my energy at outside world. This may require for me to be alone for a moment to get hold of my feelings and become and observer of my feelings. Next, I work to understand the exact nature of my feelings, where they came from, what triggered them. I then let go of the feelings with acceptance of the world outside me and within me. Sometimes, I need to repeat this process on a number of occasions before a particular trigger stops bothering me. Sometimes, I only need to do it once.

Acceptance is a key to dealing with any emotions. Acceptance of feelings within. Acceptance of the trigger and outside. Acceptance of the whole picture.

Gratitude

Gratitude. Is it a word or magic? Gratitude can help us bring peace and harmony into our lives. Gratitude can help us attract what we want into our lives. Throughout centuries many religions taught us to be grateful in our prayers for what we have. Many religions practice prayers many times during the day. Gratitude is an important part of each prayer during the day. Is it possible, that we were given a very important message but without an understanding of its true importance and value?

Gratitude can help us truly reveal our lives in many unique ways. How can we enjoy the gifts we get, if we don’t know how to be truly grateful for what we already have? Will new gifts give us long term satisfaction or a short term moment of happiness?

Gratitude comes through deep acceptance and appreciation. Experience of gratitude is a true bless. It opens up like a flower in the early morning, revealing its beauty and harmony, magically transforming everything it comes in touch with…

Obligation or joy?

As people, we have many obligations: family, work, society... We often say "I have to", " I need to", "I must"... We feel obligated. How much of what we do is in harmony with us?

Take breathing for example. Breathing is vital part of our lives. Without breathing, there is no oxygen and no life in the human body. How much do we enjoy breathing? How much of it is an obligation?

Breathing could appear as something that we have/must do to live. Breathing can be shallow. It can cause a lot of discomfort and dis-balance. Breathing can be a struggle.

On another hand, breathing is one of the keys to relaxation. Breathing out is the part the relaxes the human body the most. If we take a deep breath into our stomach, into our chest and collar bones and then very slowly breath out; we relax and can achieve balance and harmony. Breathing can be effortless and joyful.

Things we do in life are like breathing. We can create joy, peace and harmony by going through the day and choosing how we think and feel about particular situations, people and ourselves. We can make a difference in our lives by being grateful and appreciative.

We can "breath" effortlessly with a lot of joy; letting ourselves free and creating harmony and balance in our lives.

The light

I close my eyes to see the light.
The light is warm and is filled with love
It passes through me and overwhelms me.
The light surrounds me with love and acceptance.
It feels me up with joy, peace and harmony.

I loose myself in the ecstasy.
I am no longer me. I am part of the light.
I am the light.
I take a deep breathe.
The air flows through me filling me up with love.
I let myself go and follow the light deeper and deeper.

Wisdom

No words, no colours and no sounds can express the existence. They only portray a partial meaning.
The light within can be very strong, overwhelming and also ecstatic.
Take a deep breath and enjoy the divine.
Gratitude is very powerful in many ways.
Silence is communication channel of wisdom.

The change

Last year I would have tried to change the world around me. Half a year ago, I would have tried to change my world. Now, I know that the world and me are just ARE. Does anything have to change when it just exists? The answer to this is: “It is like asking a flower to grow in the opposite direction. When the time comes; the flower changes. It happens naturally. Forcing ourselves to change may not harm us nor may it harm the others, it will restrain us from being grateful and divine.” An important part of any growth is not effort, it is divine.

The future

I wonder in the world without knowing my future.
My feet follow my eyes and my thoughts on unknown passes.
My heart follows the light of the beauty and love.
My soul follows the stars from above.

I am a lost child in the world without boundaries.
What will become of me? I do not know.
Maybe, if I could foresee my distant future,
I would be able to know where to go.

I would take all the known passes
And I would foresee all the stones on the way.
But also the magic of unknown passes would disappear.
My dreams would fade away.

Mysterious world with unknown passes
Draws wondering child within me.
I am a lost child in the world without boundaries.
Creating unknown future ahead of me.

Fly with me...

Fly with me. Fly with me. Fly with me, like a bird.
Look around you and see the beauty of the world.

Can you hear your heart beat?
Can you hear your soul speak?
What does your soul tell you?
What do your eyes see?

I feel the wind gently touching me.
I hear the mountains calling me.
The grass is talking to me.
The trees are whispering.
The water is shining on me.
The sun keeps me warm.
The air keeps me breathing.

I am light as feather.
I am flying high.
I am surrounded by beauty
On the ground and in the sky.

I close my eyes.
I am filled with light.
Peace is within me.
I let myself go into the world of harmony, silence and beauty.

Lessons in life

Wanting to be someone you are not is a sign of ego.

I noticed that I wanted to be someone I am not.

This is my ego speaking.

I felt I had no gift that I was given in my life and asked myself: “why wasn’t I given one? Wouldn’t it be great, if I had a gift and was someone special?”

The answer came to me that I was gifted. The Universe perfects and expresses itself in me and in each and every one of us.

Looking at another gifted perfection of the Universe is like one star looking at another and not feeling good enough.



Impatience

I noticed that I want things to happen instantly and don’t want to wait around.

Frustration filled me up as I waited for things to happen immediately and an answer came to me…

“You are waiting for things to unwrap immediately. Universe is endless and has no boundaries. The process of waiting is one of the expressions of the Universe. See the harmony and beauty of the Universe in the process of waiting.”



Noise

I walked on the streets surrounded by noise and smoke. “This is very unpleasant I thought to myself.”

The answer came to me: “The Universe expresses itself in every noise and smell. It is in every form around you. Accept different expressions of the Universe in its every form.”

Awakening

Opening our eyes in the process of awakening of awareness is only a small part of a long journey. The real journey begins when we start living with open eyes and adjusting ourselves to the new level of our consciousness. The process of awakening is a wonderful process that brings peace, harmony and balance together with moments of complete dis-balance. We are like new born babies surrounded by the bright lights of love in the jungle of chaos.